IM SUPER PISSED OFF RIGHT NOW !Syawal has been getting at me for the past few days.
AND I DON'T EVEN FUCKING KNOW WHY?
He keeps blaming me for a small stupid thing.
Whatever I do, just doesn't fucking satisfy him.
I just don't know what he is expecting from me.
Everything is just wrong in his eyes.
WHY ? FUCK THIS SHIT IM TELLING YOU.
I can tell he's pissed that Im always out skating.
I mean, is skating a problem to him?
Not to mention, he skates too.
SOOOOOOOOOOOO ? WHY THE FUCK IS HE PISSED OFF WHEN I SKATE ?
I know his working and doesn't have a time to skate.
I mean, skating kills my boredom.
And it definitely makes me forget my problem.
Unfortunately, it's temporary.
But at the very least it lets me off my steam when im sad and troubled.
And at the very least, IM SKATING !
NOT FLIRTING WITH SOME OTHER GUYS !
He's my boyfriend but i don't even know if he trust me.
To be honest, I don't even know if he still loves me.
I FUCKING STILL LOVE HIM AND THAT'S WHY I'VE STAYED THIS FUCKING LONG BEARING WITH HIS ATTITUDE.
I don't want to argue back with him because I know it will be worst.
And I just don't want our relationship to go bad.
BUT WHAT DOES HE SEE IN ALL THIS ?
ALL HE'S DOING NOW IS BLAMING ME FOR EVERYTHING !
ACCUSE ME, GIVING ME FALSE HOPE, AND ABSOLUTELY HAVE NO FAITH IN ME !
He keeps saying he's willing to let me go.
So how strong is his love for me ?
IM FUCKING STRESS !
I still fucking love him, and its almost impossible for me to let him go.